So, right now, life hasn't been the best for me. It seems like despite what I do, nothing is moving or improving. I grew up on hard work and effort will get you what you want however, that has not been the case for me. There is only so much hope a person can have until they are ready to give up. I'm not speaking about just one aspect of my life. It's all aspect pf my life. I wasn't handed anything. I had to fight for everything I have and then some and it still feels like I have the bare minimum. I am grateful to have gotten to where I am but, why did it cost me so much of my emotional and mental state? I'm not going to lie, I get envious of people who had it easy and are able to get what they want with little to no effort. That's not a life I've ever known and I wish it was.